Nice to meet you world.

Well. this is my first time I have blogged. It’s actually the first time I’ve steppped away from my  computer comfot zone. ARGH!! I had to go on the ‘tools’ menue to enable cookies, it’s the first time I have ever been on the tools menue in the nearly 5 years I have owned this computer. Instantly I thought great, you get biscuites with this site. But I don’t think it ment that really did it. Hehe!

 Oh! I’m so inexperienced, looking around while I am writing at all these different words and ’stuff ‘ worry me. I don’t undersatnd it all. I’ll just have to write and forget about all the stuff that goes on in the background.

 I have wrote alot over the past few years I’m not really a computer junkie. I’m more of a feelings and writing junkie if you get what I mean by that.I just can’t ‘blommin’ spell. I was involved with a recovery site for a while and when that closed I followed my friend to her blog and have been replying to her for a few months. She suggessted I get a blog together as I’m a ‘big writer’ ‘OMG don’t say that’ I said. Me with my own blog NO WAY. Anyway I’m here, a moment of maddness this morning and the two words I use so regulary which are ‘fxxk it’ oups!! I mean go for it and hey presto I managed it.

 I wish I could see what I was writing tho, this is such a small space to write, I can only see 3 lines. I need to learn so much don’t I, you’ll probably be able to make this bit where we write bigger but I just don’t know how to. I would appreciate it so much if you find me in what ever wired way bloggers do if you could  teach me how to make this writing bit a bit bigger for me.

I chosse my title Sunrise and Paradise (funny I never had to think about the title) it just appeared staright away when I got asked to put a title in, I quess it’s just been waiting to come out for such a long time, This one came into my head as I rise early and write. I’m a 4 in the morning person so I get to see the sunrise every day, the paradise bit came because it sounded so special . I am actually searching for a bit of paradise, I search daily for it and the paradise I have found over the years has  come in small meaningful measures, kind words, caring thoughts and exprssing the love that I feel. Shit man, why do I want to cry, why have I got tears. Oh never mind. Tears are good, I think  we have them so the raindrops don’t feel out of place.

 Well I have a dilema now. What button do I press. Save and continue, save or publish. Should I just press publish or wot. Right…..I’m gonna press publish, wish me luck.

I say to you: ‘ One must have chaos in oneself in order to give birth to a dancing star.        Friedrich Nietzsche.

Peace, understanding and chance.