Happy Birthday Mum.

(We’re gonna hang out)The washing on the Siegfried line

 

Ha Ha Ha!!

What do you think of your song Mum. I can’t believe I found it. It’s my Mum’s birthday today. She died three years ago on the 2nd of July 2005. We kept hold of her for nine days as my sister and I wanted to bury her on her birthday and have a birhday party for her in her local pub with all her family and mates.

 

This song bloody drove me crazy for so many years. My Mum loved to drink and get merry and sing ( alot). Quiet as a mouse with out a drink but get a drink in her and she was funny man.

 

My house as a child was the house that all of us loved to be in, cause my Mum was great. All me mates loved her so much, I have to say I did get at a tad embarrassed at times. She always wanted to kiss my friends – was a very rigid hugger but a great kisser.

 

I quess I’m a bit like my Mum. I love to sing and dance, I loved singng and dancing for her whe she was dying. I sung her all her songs daily. All the kids have loved coming to my house to. My daughters mates always in my house and now my son’s mates always in my house. I have four of them asleep upstairs now as I’m writing. I love my kids mates just like my Mum loved my mates.

 

Do you know what was well funny as I got older. My best friend Adele and I used to make my Mum and my Aunty Ann smoke cannabis. We’d make a joint and very gently coax them into smoking some. I know…. NOT GOOD , but funny as fuck.

 Ha ha!! Don’t even have any guilt around it – my 12 step friends would be mortified, Hehe!! My Mum and my Aunty Ann stoned was the most funniest thing ever – wouldn’t you say so Adele.

 

They laughed and laughed till they cried. I’m holding that memory with me today. I’m going to Colne today where I was brought up and where she is buried. I love cemetary’s and she is layed to rest in the most beautiful place by the river in the hills. 

 

I’m going to spend the day at my Mum’s grave. I’m going to take a little picnic and sing and dance for her, I’m going to take her her favourite flowers and write a card for her. She loved cards.

 

Mum I love you and the relationship we have today is so beautiful and free. Your my hero Mum. I miss you though. OH! I’m crying now. I really do miss you. Do you know what I want ? I want those three months back again when you were dying. I want to experience all that love,peace and ease again. I loved those three months Mum. Aww!! I have them don’t I.

 Yes ! We knew you were dying, trying to re-assure you that you wasn’t going to go to hell was the harderst bit for me. So scared you were going to hell. Catching you crying like a little girl broke my heart. I was strong though. God know’s where I got that strength from. I won’t write to much here today Mum. I’ve wrote about death and so detailed for about three years now and not just my mothers.

 

I’m so hurt and so sorry that you had all that catholic guilt. I hope I made it a bit easier for you. I quess out of all our familys member’s it could have only been me who would have the conversation eh!! Thank you for trusting me Mum.

 

WORLD…

 

I LOVE MY MUM.

 

Keep Hanging out that washing Mum.

Rest beautifuly sweetheart and Happy Birthday. I’m going to party for you like it’s 1973. Aww!!

 

Your Daughter and best friend

Diane XX