My friend Chloe Poems
9/11 Survivor Chloe Poems’ Live Show in Manchester 3\3
OMG !!
Firstly!!
I’d like you to meet my friend Gerry aka as Chole Poems. Gerry is one of my best friends and I would go as far as saying he is one of the people in my life that has taught me the most ,and got me to look at who Diane really is – in such a free inspiring way. We’ve taught each other so very much through our pain. No ! Actualy I have lots of people who teach me things – I’m very teachable. Gerry taught me stuff in a different way.
I have so much fun with this man. When I met him he blew my mind. I couldn’t believe how quick and witty a human being could be – just off the top of his head. OH! The stuff that this wondeful man comes out with is…. I don’t feel I have words to match his own to describe his talents so I better not say. I don’t want to insult him. In fact – I have my moments to and I couldn’t believe how I could keep up with him. Sometimes I could meet him on the role. I amazed myself.
I just want to say I love this man from all the senses and emotion one can I. I adore this man, I respect this man and if I didn’t have him in my life, If I had never found this man – my life would no way be as full and as alive and as free for want of a better word. The conversations that Gerry and I have had are real, true, painful, loving, intense, inspiring, beautiful, wounding and healing – there just everything I need in a conversation.
You know !!
He has a poem called ‘Life’, my daughter Kerri was doing a presentation at work one day and she was asked to do a ten minuite kinda act/show. I don’t know what they bloody do at work nowadays, she was doing something anyway. She wanted to speak Chole’s words – Gerrys words. We searched this house high and low but couldn’t fine it. We were crazy looking, We hunted. Unfortunatly we never found it and didn’t put the effort in to ringing. Liz to get it. Never mind. Next time. Liz is Gerrys manager. she was, I don’t know if she still is. She’s his best friend anyway.
Well !!
The reason I have put this clip here is :
My blog friends are American and I wondered what he had to say, as the title had 9/11 appeared in it. I was drawn to look obviously , my friend really does use freedon of speech.
Anyway !!
To my amazement, my absoulte amazement, he recietes my favourite poem of his. I have to put this video here and I’m so sorry if it’s going to offend any-one. I am a spiritual person and Gerry is but I thought this poem was absoutly fucking amazing. It’s called I wanna be fucked by Jesus.
I have actualy read this poem to a priest when I worked in the prison. I read it to the prison priest – he was never the same with me again. Hey Ho! When I read it to him his reply was ; ‘ He must be a very angry man’ Hehe!! Fuck the priest, that’s what I say, Oups ! Sorry.
I wanna fuck the priest. hehe!!
My daughter and I used to read this poem to each other when she was 11 She loved it to. When we had visitors she would always ask me to read the poem to them. hehe!!
So !!
How wondeful and not very strange that I find my favourite poem in the way I did. ( always magic and beauty ). It was the title 9/11 and Annies pictures that got me to this post.
Gerry is coming to visit me with another one of my best friend Liz. OMG ! Do I love Liz. I have to say, I think that Liz is my most favourite person ever. OMG ! I have put that woman through some shit. My addiction encompassed on her life for a little while and brought this woman so much pain. All’s she did was love me and give me a home, she deserved none ot it.
It was so hard for my friends when I relasped, so hard for me. They’d never seem me using. I’d been clean for a lot of years.Liz actualy became mother to my son for four weeks as I tryed to dettox in some mental hospital. This woman took full responsibility for my son for four weeks. Four weeks of Jack. I love this woman, she loves me – we both know that.
It got very painful for both of us, an act of desperation on my part brought me to abusing my best friend kindness, I broke her heart, I broke my heart. That act got me into a treatment center the next day.
Liz and Gerry are coming to visit me soon. We’ve not spent time together for over fours years now. I have so much beauty to share, so much love to give them and I have to share me and my personal achievemnet to. I’ve been clean for a good few years now and I want to share my spirit with them.
Liz and Gerry supporetd me when I was dying. They saw death. I can’t wait for them to see life. I am actualy dying but just in a differernt way now. We’re all dying arn’t we. Thats what gives us life.
For Liz and Gerry and Darling Chloe and Me.
I love us.
Always.. No matter what
Di X
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I think I’ve spelt Gerrys name wrong, I think It’s Jerry. Thats doesn’t mean I don’t love him. I spell my daughters name wrong.I spell Kerri and it’s Kerry. hehe! It’s a world isn’t.
I thank God we know were ‘IT’ and we don’t just have to think it like some of our twatty ex-freinds.
I was banished from my group of friends – not all of them I have to say, but the ones that did had quite an effect and impact on me. Hurt me bad. I’m over it now and I thank god for that expereince. Taught me what I want in my life and what I don’t want.
Thank God or who ever that I can be true to myself and be who I am. Warts an all. I share me as Gerry does, It’s beautiful and it’s free.
I don’t know what what this word would be like it Gerry aka Chole poems and Darling Liz wasn’t in it. I dread to think.
Always loving and always sharing. I want nothing more from this man – just who he is.
Good Morning World. XX
duskydi - July 19, 2008 at 10:48 am
OMG!!
Do I love this man. I’m tearful here. He used to call me ‘The angel of the group’.
If anyone ever has the chance to meet this man personaly or within his performances – I quess you meet him personaly in his performances don’t you you will be truly privalaged.
I meet Gerry not through his performances, so you can imagine how I felt wehn I saw him preform. Gerry and Liz cared for Brain aka Brenda as he was dying of Aids. I can’t tell the story to emotional. We have a DVD. ‘Ceo Brenda’, something like that. All the care. all the love, all the support, all the beauty is on the DVD.
Brenda Sweetheart. It’s not over yet. I never got the privalge to meet you but I was told that you would have loved me. I thank God you live on in Gerry and Liz.
For Brenda… I have you in my heart and soul even though we never met.
I love you.
XX
duskydi - July 19, 2008 at 11:00 am
About ten years ago now, I celebrated my birthday with Gerry and Liz in London in Brians aka Brenda flat. I feel so honoured and privalazed – you’ve no idea to get given that oppurtunity.
Brian I met you, I felt you, I was around all your special things. I have that in my memory and in my heart and in my soul.
Thank -you Gerry and Liz for giving me that opurtunity to feel Brian. I’m feeling him right now more than what I ever have. It’s making me cry beautiful tears.
We have tears so the raindrops don’t feel out of place don’t we. aww!!
Much apprieacated.
A Teary Di.
X
duskydi - July 19, 2008 at 11:05 am
I sent all this writng about my friend off to him today. I sometimes worry about disclosing to much about me and my friendships with poeple – I never used to, but I quess people always don’t want a mention – do they ?.
I love sharing my love and experiences I have with other human beings. I don’t mind telling my friends how beautiful they are and how much I love them. I think it makes for a nicer day.
Have you listend to the poem I have put here ?. ‘I want to be fucked by Jesus’. I told my friend I had posted the post and she told me it was blasphemy.
OH NO !!
What’s going to happen to me now ?
I think Chole speaks beautiful about Jesus. The only line that really gets me and makes me a bit cringy is. ‘ I get sticky in my underpants ‘ I don’t like that, it makes me cringe. I’m smiling here. Well…..You can’t like everything can you.
Always loving and sharing it
Di X
duskydi - July 20, 2008 at 6:45 pm
Do you know what I really love. I love how he close’s his act, he say’s.
‘ Here’s to the end of bullying and abusing children by religion’ OMG !! I love this man.
I will post the lyric’s to these two magnificant pieces. I wanna be fucked by Jesus 1 and I wannna be fucked by Jesus 2.
I’m smiling here as he says he’s horrifyed by the amout of times that God enters his life today , he’s an atheisist and why don’t people respect that.
Well…..
I have used the word God all the way through this post. I’ve thanked God. I’ve thanked God for him.
I don’t know about God. I just know that I have a watcher in me. She’s well apparant in my life, I know there’s a power greater than me, I was brough up strictly catholic as Jerry was.
Well……
I don’t know what happened within me when my mother died but the pain, the desperation and fear that my mother experienced with her chatholic upbringing haunts me.
Trying to re-assure her that she wasn’t going to hell was horrific. OMG !! The conversations we had about that little subject.
I’ll post the lyrics to these two poems when I have the time to write them down.
Good morning World.
Smiles
Di
duskydi - July 21, 2008 at 6:26 am
PS. I told you I spelt my freinds Jerrys name wrong haven’t I and my daughter’s.
Well….
It’s not just in this post that I have spelt my daughter’s name ‘wrong’. I’ve spelt her name wrong since she had her name registered as a baby. Since she was born. All her life.
She spells her name ‘right’. We have quite a few conversations about it.
It’s Kerry not Kerri. Why for 23 years have I spelt it wrong’ I wonder ?
Good Monday Morning World. I hope you have a great day and week.
XX
duskydi - July 21, 2008 at 7:57 am