Money – Its a Gas.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AXQg7Oir1Bg

 

I typed money fairy in images and this picture came up. I quiet like this picture, the Dark Countesss, yes I like that.

 

Lets talk money.

Okey ! How do people cope with money. How do people cope with to much money and how do people cope with very little money. I don’t know – how do I cope. I’m so happy that I don’t have much money. Its a shame for people who have money in this country at the moment. The stories I’ve heard have made me glad to be skint.

I cope very well I have to say, very very well. I don’t spend excessive amounts on money on items and clothes and stuff like that, I spend money on face cream, olives and perfume.There my most expensive purchases.

Money has no value when your a drug addict – you can spend money like theres no tomorrow.You don’t seem to look at money as money, you just look at it as drugs.

I must have spent £250.000 off my own money on drugs over the years – such a lot of money and God knows how much money has been spent on me in treatment centers and re-habs along the way.

I know in my last treatment my friend spent £10.000 just for four weeks in a private treatment centre trying to help me get clean.

I’ve wasted and spent so much money with my addiction over the years. I could have been a really wealthy woman. Drug addicts make so much money usually through deciept and dishonesty, Di could have been rich, hehe !! still can be if I want to be – I don’t want to be.

I could marry a very wealthy man and become a very wealthy woman if I want. I don’t want. If I ever marry it has to be for LOVE. Oh ! I want to find  love. I want a boyfriend. I can’t marry for money.

I could only marry for love but I have to say at times I’m tempted to marry for money. I’m tempted when my friends need help and are struggling. I’m tempted for my childrens finanacial security. I always think if I just married HIM I would be able to give people money who needed it. OMG ! I’ve gone on some wierd and wonderful tangents with this one over the years.

Oh !!

Now the majourity of my friends think I’m the luckiest woman on earth – I beg to differ.

Having this option has totally fucked me up and over over the years. Its created so much confusion  tension and frustration. I’m not really a money girl I’m not. I’m more balanced nowadays with this situation, it doesn’t torment me as much and now am very grateful that I’m loved by a wealthy man.

I have a very very perculiar friendship with my friend. I can’t wait to write about it, its bizarre. I’ve got my head around our friendship now, its cool.

My friends say I am so lucky and how amazing to have an energy that would generate that level of generosity.

I quess I am lucky – Yes I am lucky, I must be. I quess its not everyday you meet a person who is to become a great friend, a friend of twelve years who is really wealthy person, who worships the ground you walk on in a real perculiar way and would give you the world. Its a bit wierd, not as much now but its taken some time for me to understand different life styles and different allsorts.

 

Let me just say, we are so different  – chalk and cheese.

The wealth came in handy when I was using, I used my friend to use drugs and I used drugs to use my friend – actually not that handy, very painful and tormentered,  BUT !!

Alls well now and we have a great friendship and a more free er love. I never ask my friend for a penny, never, I like to give to him now. I’ve taken to much, smiling – I still accept beautiful gifts though.

The reason I’m talking about money is ;

I’ve just gave a £1.000 away. I don’t have much money, I have my weekly sickness benefit and I have some savings which I try not to touch, its my travelling fund. I feel safe with a small amount.

For me I feel secure finanically and extremely wealthy when I have £4.000 in my savings account. Its not a lot of money I know but to me it is.

Anyway !!

What I’m trying to say is Christmas is coming up and I’ve just gave money away which takes me below my threshold of finanical security and I’m totally okey with it. These past few years I would have never been okey with this, its been my mission to try to keep 4 grand floating. I think I’ve done very well with this little project I’ve had, my little mission.

 Anyway !! I was happy to help.

Whoo Hoo !!

Back on my budget now to save the money up I’ve just gave away.

I’m spending very little money this Christmas. I’m spending £500 and thats it.

Whats really got to me about money is my gas and electricitry bills.I’m going to write a seperate post about that.

Love Di.

 

PS. Hehe !! Smiling – I don’t usually talk about money, I came here to talk about Adeles Party at weekend. Sylvie organised a dinner party to say goodbye to Adeles womb. She has her hystrectmony on Thursday.