Not very well & skint.

I don’t want to complain about money but…….

I’ve never once in all my nearly two years off having my blog complained about money. Its not worth complaining about but when I’m cold and can’t afford to put the heating on and I’ve been hungry because I can’t afford food from one week to the next its serious.

 Gas bill    £487.00  for three months

Electric  £198.00 for three months

Water      £256.00  for the year

Telly.      £139.00 for the year

I’ve just payed all that money out on bills.

Its hard with no wage coming in, just sickness benefit and its hard with just one person having to pay the bills. At least if you had a boyfriend or what ever everything would be shared.I can’t afford to live now. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’m not having a nice time at the moment.I guess I could sell my stuff to pay the bills.I don’t feel well, been ill for nearly two weeks now, in bed ill for a week but that’s okey as its shaved me money on heating the house.Life’s a bag of shit now.

I need to get some sort of take on this world now before the world gets a take on me and takes me to places I don’t want to go to.

I need my life and certain aspects of it in order but I can’t find the order with no money to pay bills. I either get a job or make some money some how.Life’s not as easy at the moment but I guess we are all going through it financially with how the world is.

Just having a moan.

Love Di.

I don’t feel well, I wish I was cared for.Diane, Diane you are cared for, please don’t go on that ol’ trip – thinking like that gets you no-where.What I mean is I’m not cared for practically. Oh I’m told I’m loved and I believe it but being told I’m loved doesn’t pay the bills, clean my house or cook me some food.I feel weak and ill and have tears that are not my usuall tears, not free flowing I feel poorly and I need some care.I feel lonley again. This is not a good place for me.

Diane x

Back at the doctors today.

These are the times that I wished my friends just lived around the corner. Maggie needs to go out walking, its so hard and I’m wondering if I did the right thing getting a puppy, she needs care and love to, she can’t even walk up and down the stairs yet and shes bloody 7 months now. Its hard for me to even pick her up in this state.